It's been a long while since I last blog and I confess that laziness has been a major factor that contribute to me been M.I.A. I have been going through a lot of big changes like being in a new class and moving on to the main comm. in my IG. Being busy might be the worst standard excuse that I have for not giving my time to God and I truly want to change my attitude. However, while I was in the midst of being busy, God never fail to remind me of drawing close to Him through Pastor Khong's sermon.

Indeed I was convicted today by pastor's sermon on 'The Word And I'. It's time that I get right with God once again. I have to be a doer rather than only be a hearer of God’s word as said in James 1:22-25. I ask myself from time to time whether do I fear the Lord and I have to admit that I wasn’t as ‘holy’ as people thought I was. I had my own problems which I chose to solve it on my own then to rely on God at times. The truth is I did not put God first in whatever I did. Words without action were just not good enough. I did not really understand how to fear the Lord.

Thanks be to God, for He ministered to me in a big way for the past few weeks. I have learnt what the real meaning of fearing the Lord was and why we should fear Him through Pastor Khong’s message last week. But that wasn’t just enough; I still had the mentality that I was too busy to spend time with God. And so, He spoke to me through today’s message of taking His word seriously. It was like a long anticipated wake up call that I had been waiting all this while.

I found myself recalling what God wanted me to do in my life. I realize that without aligning my heart to God’s heart, I will never be able to grow in those areas that God has shown me. I have come to realize that no matter how hard I work, in the case my studies, my future has already been decided by God. God is reminding me that as long as I put in my effort, He will do His part in giving me His best. The same goes for my skills in guitar playing. I can always practice the guitar but the improvement will only come from God. Over time, I found out that I improve most when I really do worship the Lord.

As I was recalling about the things that God wanted me to do in my life, I noticed that I have missed out one crucial thing from the vision I had from God. It has always been about me and not God, everything I did was for myself. I had not spent my time with God, the time which He held dear. Through my busyness, I have neglect God. I did not put in the effort to really know God because I thought I knew Him already. I really thank God for this wake up call.

It is through this wake up call that I remember the purpose for setting up this blog. To be a light, a light that will shine God’s goodness in my life and to let people know that the God who blesses me abundantly is also willing to bless them. From this day on, I want to be honest in my blogging. I want to make the decision of living out a life of being obedient to God..Thank you Lord, for all you’ve done for me. I know my future is secured in Your hands and my trust is in you.

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