Tuesday, December 16, 2008
TRUST

Sometimes I just feel so flustered and tired...

Lost and confused...

Lord I need your help...

Help me to trust in You, I just can't do it on my own...

I surrender my all to You...

Guide me in Your way...

There's nothing better than knowing...

You are always there for me...

I lay my desires before You...

I trust that if it's your will...

It shall be done...

May I seek righteousness first....

In Jesus name, I pray...

Amen

Labels: Prayer

Thursday, December 11, 2008
To Be Good Or Not To Be Good?

To be good or not to be good? That is the question. Life is certainly full of choices and it can be hard to make decisions at times. Being a good person can be tough while being a bad guy seems so much easier and much ‘cooler'.

Some say that nice guys don’t last. Well I chose to be a ‘goodie’ good person for the past 3 years and I’m still standing. I may not know what lies in the future but I had rather be a blessing to the people around me then a walking disaster or a pest. What brings joy to me is the smile on people’s face and I certainly know that it brings joy to my heavenly father too. It sure isn’t easy being a good guy, some people just hate good guys and there’s really nothing you can do about it except pray for them haha.

So have I been a bad guy? Yes definitely, when I was younger. Back then, I was a little haywire and I did a lot of stupid things. It was only when I hit the age of 15 when I finally saw the light! Playing as a bad guy was cool and all but it really didn’t get me anywhere. I did extreme things like throwing frogs into my ‘nemesis house’, picking the locks of doors to rooftops back in my previous condo, going heads on with the security guards. You can never imagine me doing all that if you see me as the person I am now. I probably look like an angel=) yeah right. Anyways that is not the main point. The main point is this: I may have the attention and ‘friends’ but I felt like an empty shell that was lost and alone inside.


Why the sudden change then? I don’t really have a reason why I guess, it just seem so natural that when I’m nice to people, I just feel super good. It’s like an in-built trait in me and I guess maturity plays a part too. Through out the past 3 years, I have seen much more blessings in my life, and I really thank God for all He has done for me. Being a good guy isn’t that all boring, you can be fun to the people around you. I realize that you make more true friends when you are sincere and down-to-earth with them. God blesses the good abundantly and in my case, he has blessed me with GOOD friends that I can trust, as well as a peaceful family. There is certainly more to come but yeah, the blessings will come at God's timing.


I firmly believe that the nice people would last in the long run. Don’t believe me? Then I challenge you to try it out!

It may sound kind of cheesy, but good people makes the world a better place! (So Don, if you ever want to try anything stupid: think twice AGAIN, tell me or don’t even try!)





So who would you be today?
To be good or not to be good…all the time? That is the question…

Labels: Devotion

Friday, December 5, 2008
My testimony, My Life...

God has done many things in my life. I am really thankful that He has indeed changed my life. Though I was a born a Christian, I never really got to know the Lord intimately until some circumstances in my life helped me to draw near to Him.

I remembered the day that I rededicated my life to the Lord. It was right after my O levels and many thoughts were running through my mind. I was thinking about my future, and I felt unsure of where God would lead me. At that point in time, I wasn’t really close to the Lord. It was like having the belief that there was a God, yet you are not really doing anything about it. I did not know exactly why I decided to trust in the Lord, but it was a certainly a decision that I did not regret. In my heart I was saying like, ‘God, if you are truly a God who cares for me, then change my life at this very moment.' It was like a sudden thought that triggered in me and right after I made that decision, my life was never the same again.

At the beginning of the year 2007, I received a call from my mum and she was telling me that she was diagnosed with breast cancer. I did not really know how to react to it. Now for a brief history between my mum and I. I was never really to close to my mum and I did not live with her for a certain period in my life. I stayed with my aunt for the most part of my life. I did not really like her because of the way she showed her love and concern for me. Hence, when I heard that she had cancer, I was rather confused to how I should react to it. However, God reminded me from the bible that I should love my parents and furthermore, love should be patient. I took this step of faith to visit my mum for the very first time since 7 years ago.

She was not in a very good state and though my heart was broken when I saw her, a part of me still felt cold towards her. However, I trusted in God that He will make things for the better. My father and I would try to visit her every time when we were free. I found it very hard to visit her each time because of the way she showed her love and concern for me. I really did not like how she was still treating me like a child but I made the effort to be patient with her. My mother was a Christian but some how along the way, she drifted away from God. Through her last days, I tried my very best to help her to believe in God once again and I succeeded in doing so.

On the very day before she passed away, she said something that really touched my heart. She told me that she knew that her way of loving me may not be something that I like, however she did try her best to change and asked me to forgive her for any hurt that she has brought upon me. Her last words to me were that she really loved me. It felt really different from the previous times that she expressed her love towards me. I had a sudden urge to just tell her that I love her too. There was this sudden breakthrough in me after saying that. I felt that something heavy in my heart has been lifted up. I knew that God was healing my heart at that very moment.

Though she may be gone, I know that she is with God at this very moment. If it wasn’t for God, I would not have forgave my mum and perhaps still carry a sense of hatred to my mother till this very day. A series of blessings, such as reconciliations, close friends as well as good grades, followed after that. Yes, there were other challenges along the way that I had to face, but I knew I wasn’t facing it alone. I know that God has always been with me in the past and He will be with me in the present as well as the future to come. He has been with me through it all and I really thank God for molding me into the person I am today. The person you see standing here today is a much, much stronger person than he was 2 years back.

Through brokenness, there was transformation. If you believe in God today, the very same God that has changed my life will changed yours too and I testify to that.

Aaron
The warrior of light

Labels: Devotion